finding life

about time to end the blog drought! :) this is SO going to be verbal diarrhoea! :)

we're more than halfway through our 14 day fast and prayer season themed "Ignite"! it's been really timely and there really is the sense that God is longing to do SO MUCH more in the hearts and lives of His people!

personally it's been a crazy couple of months :) it's always always such an adventure walking with Jesus and i'm so grateful that i get to continually experience His faithfulness and realize that i would be so lost without Him! but yes it was a trying, moulding, testing couple of weeks but wow! just amazing testimonies and lessons learnt (big time!) to share about how i finally passed my driving exam and attended my grad ceremony among other things! (PRAISE GOD!!!) God's timing and how His purposes unfold never cease to amaze me! i think God has still plenty of things to teach me in this season but He has taught me over and over again that trying to have a life without finding it in Jesus and trusting completely in Him is like having milk tea without pearls or cereal without milk! (ok definitely not good comparisons at ALL haha)

once again i am convinced and convicted that we can fully entrust our lives into His hands, and as we continue to seek Him and walk with Him every step of the way He IS faithful and His plans are always the best even beyond what we can plan for ourselves!!!

it's been a wonderful week so far, but for the next few days (and weeks!) i desperately want God to move and speak as i seek Him! i believe He does desire to ignite within our hearts a new consuming passion and fire for Him, His purposes and His Church!

it's been really SO good to have some time off and i absolutely would NOT trade the precious time spent with my family, but once again as i was reflecting this week, running after more "stuff" and living for myself is TIRING. As Solomon came to a conclusion in Ecclesiastes, when he had everything he wanted and could do whatever he desired, "everything is meaningless!" God is so faithful to provide and to bless... but there is a growing discontent... that i believe many of us feel!
Achievements, things of this world, possessions, relationships, self-gratification, money... none of these things can fill that God-shaped hole and that innate desire for eternal things! though it can sometimes seem SO tempting for me to just sit comfortable, please and care about myself, go do more shopping, watch TV all day... the Holy Spirit kept that gnawing feeling going... and knowing that it was all purposeless and temporal made me feel SO uncomfortable at the same time.

God has INDEED put eternity in our hearts and once again i am challenged and convicted to make the most of every moment that He has given to us! no matter how tired, how sleep deprived, how much of our time, how much it costs, nothing can compare to the privilege of investing into eternity- the Kingdom of God; the bride of Christ; souls saved for eternity!

really His Kingdom is like that pearl of great value; and only will we find true life when we lose our lives in Him. As Jesus says "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?"

stir it up Lord, stir up a consuming fire for You and Your purposes once again- let there be new dreams, new vision, new passion, new life found in You!