the child must grow up :)

one of the biggest things God has been re-enforcing lately lately is that i cannot and should not put Him in a box!
God is so amazing. we are constantly learning new things about our Father everyday.

unfortunately, many times due to our fear, ignorance, stupidity and even just plain stubbornness we limit our perspectives and view of who God is and what He can do.

i was prophetically told "not to put God in a box" more than a year ago during the OC. i had no idea what it meant so i basically forgot all about it. Then i heard it repeated again and again this year and now i FINALLY! get what God has been trying to tell me.


i've been assuming that the level of faith i am living in and how i've seen God move and work in my life is just the way God always works.

now i realize i want to have simplicity of faith like a child but not be childish forever!

unfortunately, like a child, i've been asking God over and over again to "show me You're real and that You're leading me". i've been expecting God to teach me the same lesson again (for the three hundred sixty third time probably)

Countless times He has shown me and there's been so so many miracles and testimonies and yet i still come back to the same place of uncertainty and questions.

it's kind of like a child who needs to go on a journey asking her parent at every step "do you love me and will you go with me" over and over again and getting the same answer again and again. And rather than accept it, grow up and move on smarter, faster, more trusting and more confident and secure because of the parents' love, the child starts to become comfortable in expecting and being dependent on the answer at each step.

but what should happen is that when it is time for the journey to change, when the child has to grow up and take bigger steps, go through more exciting paths, times where the parent does not always have to give the answer, the child is able to do it and doesn't need to keep asking the same question all the time because she has grown up and has have greater faith, certainty and conviction because of what the parent has said and done in the past, and simply because of the relationship she now has with Him.
i didn't realize it until a few days ago, but i've been content and complacent in how God has been working in my life, and to just wait for God to answer my questions and move (the way He's done countless times in the past) and not shake me out of my comfort zone and take a leap of faith.

but finally i've come to the realization: be a child but not be childish.

in many ways the child must grow up. learn the lesson, enlarge the view of God, and rise to a new level of faith for greater adventures. out of comfort zone, stronger and greater conviction and trust!