be still

i find one of the hardest things to do is to be quiet and still for more than 10 minutes, especially to wait on God! (funny that my recent post was titled along these lines too)

it's funny how we sometimes feel that because being still and waiting seems so unproductive. that it's so hard to do because it feels like we're not doing anything... not praying, not working, etc.

it's like taking a rest. i feel guilty sometimes because it doesn't feel productive!

the reality is... we need to be still. like we need rest. when we're resting our body and all the cells get rid of the toxins, rejuvenate, recover for a brand new day.
we need to come before the Lord, and hear His voice. we need to soak in His presence. it's those times that we hear the still, small life-giving powerful nudge or whisper of the Holy Spirit. it's those times we yield to Him and allow Him to change and mould us- get rid of the spiritual junk and recover and rejuvenate in our souls.


a very good friend of mine (thanks for always pulling me up when i need it!) asked me yesterday- "cait, don't you like ever slow down?"

i was puzzled; i've been "slowing down" for quite a while now!

"not as in physically but in your soul"

that got me thinking. i'd been sharing at the time that i was thinking about my to-do list, my gcal, stuff i need to follow up on... (long list i fear!)

but i need to constantly remind myself to just be still. i think i've been telling myself this for more than a year now.


one of the things that was repeated many, many, MANY times last year and the year before was this thing about "waiting".

"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait upon the Lord." Ps 27:14

To wait for the Lord in this season. To allow Him to continue to mould, shape, prune, refine... me.
Sometimes i wonder what exactly i'm waiting for. i wonder how long i'm supposed to wait. i know in this time i'm supposed to be still. to wait. to fix my eyes on Him.



it feels really hard at times because i just want to FIX something. to hurry up and CHANGE and perfect all my weaknesses (the countless numbers of them) so that i can stop feeling so useless and have to keep waiting.

but i'm reminded. be still.

Be still my soul, be still
Be still my soul, be still
Wait patiently upon the Lord
Be still my soul, be still
#karijobe


and biggest revelation in this time is that: waiting isn't passive.

in the Bible when it says "wait upon God" it's not a passive action where you stand around doing nothing. The "waiting" is described kinda like a servant waiting upon his master. it's active.
you're waiting on God. you're listening to His commands. you're obeying as He speaks. you're living to please the Master. in the waiting the heart changes. the person matures. the person really gets to know God, understand His faithfulness, understand truly who He is and what He wants to and can do.


so all of us out there waiting... take heart. wait on (upon) God and be still (in your soul).